Friends...


It's hard to be in love with a friend... Constantly hiding how you feel... And pretending that you don't daydream about the "relationship" you could have... I always fall in love with my male friends. Bad habit... I'm a people person and I'm drawn to people that I'm close to. And eventhough we are platonic, sometimes I wish we weren't. But I guess it's for the best. But everytime I talk to you, I wish I was with you, and every time I'm with you, I wish we could be together. And because you don't feel the same, I try not to impose my feelings upon you. Sometimes it does seep out and then I'm left with some sort of guilt or shame. Guilt because I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me. At least not the way I want them to be. It's funny because I always thought that I could be with anyone I wanted to be with. But, now, well, I can't be with anyone I want to be with. I talk to you nearly every day and see you all the time, but it doesn't feel like enough. I would give my right arm to you. But you won't even give your heart to me...It hurts to have you in my life, but it's punishment to not have you there at all... In love with one of my best friends, that's my daily routine....